WOW.

The fact that one post can cause so much controversy and angst amazes me.

Apparently, I am guilty of a hate crime.

For anyone that has been reading my blog for a year or more knows my background and my personal testimony. Therefore, the comments about my youth minister and PK issues were probably understood by those people because they read them in that context. They know my background and the story of those churches and that youth minister and therefore understand why I was so angry.

When I was little I struggled with my temper because I was NOT being raised in a perfect home and because-get this-I AM NOT PERFECT. I know, I know, everyone gasp. All of the inflamed comments (that I have since deleted) seem to focus on the fact that I find it cute I was a hellion. That is anything BUT the truth. I wasn't clear in that because again, I assume the people that read my blog know me and know my background. That is stupid of me because daily someone reads my blog that came across it on Google!

However, I am apparently the only one who gets my sarcasm in the previous post.Those that know me understand that I in no way finding my behavior cute. I was humiliated, ashamed of myself and shocked that I behaved so rashly. But you know what? It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. It doesn't matter that several of you think I am guilty of a "hate crime" because I mentioned a homosexual and how would I feel if that was my son as someone put it.

The fact of having a public blog is that I will be criticized and I can take that. But you know what? I will not be told to be PC. I am sorry if you think I am casting a stone like the Pharisees did-I don't really care because I am so sick and tired of walking into that Mcdonalds and seeing homosexuality FLAUNTED in front of my children. MY SON. If a man wears makeup and jewelry in public he should expect condemnation. I am NOT saying violence against homosexuals is okay, but you know what? I DO NOT think it is okay that they are allowed to work in a place that caters to families and children and flaunt it openly.

I am so tired of it not being okay to express the fact that homosexuality is WRONG. The liberal agenda is literally choking our nation to death. I am afraid to send my children out into a world that is SO full of gray. Morals are black and white. There is ONE way to live and that is it. To be told again and again by the media and by other people that we should accept sin and accept what we know is wrong galls me. Yes, God is a loving God and yes, He loves people even when they sin but you know what? God is also a vengeful God. He demands righteousness and He demands holiness and He demands that we obey HIS way for our lives. Do I think he wuold have thrown things and yelled? NO. I am sure he would have been loving and merciful in all the ways that I was not. But I he would have also told that man to go and SIN NO MORE, just like he told the adulterous woman that He saved from those stones.

And for the person that says I have hurt their image of Christianity, I am truly sorry. Yes, you are right in saying that the leading cause of athiesm is Christians. I fully accept that because I have lived it. I went through hell growing up because of other Christians. But I finally learned that Christians are just like me-scarred, imperfect, and stupid. We are people. We mess up daily and do stupid, hurtful things to other people. The only thing that seperates us is that we have the hope of a risen Savior. We have Christ's example to live up to and Him living in us and slowly, we mature and get better and stronger and more like Him.

Did I demonstrate that at all in the previous post? No, I can honestly say I know I didn't. Did I show mercy and love? No, not at all. My point in posting it was actually to let other moms see how imperfect I am. To see that I royally screw up sometimes. To see how stupid I was and how that poor manager at the Mcdonalds treated me as a result and how merciful SHE was. I completely failed in that, I see that now but I was in no way saying that the fact I made an idiot out of myself was okay. I write in the belief that other Christians and only other Christians are reading this blog and that is again, stupid of me. I know another Christian would at least understand that I made a huge mistake, was able to laugh about it days later and move on.